Dr Laura Lowery's Blog

Well, it certainly has been a long time since I have posted in this blog. I am still here though, still thinking, still reflecting, still living, still loving, still deciding how to show up as my best self in this world. 

In my last blog post, over a year ago, I noted that I had a drive to write more of my current spiritual journey, and I had planned to blog more. Clearly, that did not happen. Part of the challenge is that my journey has been so intense and transformative and internal, and there is a fear and a vulnerability in sharing what has happened to me in such a (potentially) public forum. And so I have erred on the side of caution, which is not what I have always done in the past. I used to live my life in a way that I wanted to tell the whole world how much love there is in this world, if only we allow ourselves to feel it and give it. But not everyone sees the world the way that I do. And to some people, people who live in fear, people who are financially (or otherwise) motivated to find evil and darkness in others, they can so easily misconstrue words of love. And those people are definitely out there, reading my words too, as I have personally learned. And so I have tried to be careful.

But the purpose of life is to experience and to create. And one of the ways that I create is through writing. I write every day. Every day. But most of it has been for myself and for a select few. But I feel such a calling to put words of love and connection out there right now. Especially today, the election day, in which this country feels so much polarization and division. So, here is a little of what is going on with me…  

I have recently begun to take an 18 week course on the Bhagavad Gita with one of my spiritual teachers, Kaya Mindlin. (yogawithkaya.com) For those who do not know (and I was one of those people a year ago), the Bhagavad Gita is a spiritual text meant for “householders” – those of us who have worldly household responsibilities. It is about how to be a human being and live life in a spiritual way. The Bhagavad Gita is meant to be heard, not read, and taught in a dynamic fluid way with a teacher. I am very fortunate to have found a wonderful and wise teacher in Kaya. While the classes are taught live (online), they are also recorded, and I will often listen to her uplifting and supportive and thoughtful words whenever I am driving around, especially on my commutes to and from work. 

I am also re-reading a book right now, called Conversations with God, by Neale Donald Walsch. I read a little bit each night, and then I discuss what I have read with my partner.

The messages are all the same, and they resonate deeply with me. 

Here are a few lines that I find impactful:

“There is only one purpose for all of life, and that is for you and all that lives to experience…” 

“The soul seeks to experience.”

“In the beginning, that which IS is all there was, and there was nothing else. Yet All That Is could not know itself – because All That Is is all there was, and there was nothing else…Now All That Is knew it was all there was – but this was not enough, for it could only know its utter magnificence conceptually, not experientially.”

“And so All That Is divided Itself.” God created relativity, in a spiritual event that is entirely consistent with the Big Bang Theory.

The purpose was so that God could create sufficient parts to know Itself experientially as the Creator. 

And so we are all Creators. All of us. We each create our realities, whether consciously or not.

My focus, these days, is to create my life consciously. And to recognize the truth of my existence.

One of the ways to find wholeness and peace and joy in one’s life is to let go of judgements and to remember that all of life events (those we call good and call bad) are all simply opportunities for us to decide who we want to be. We cannot always consciously choose what happens to us, but we can choose how we respond to what happens.

If you want to hear more about all of this, I highly recommend the book. A colleague of mine at BU recommended it. 

I came across a Facebook friend’s post on Sunday, and he lovingly wrote of his father, who had passed away many years ago. He wrote that he learned from his father that this world is beautiful, that humanity is beautiful, and that there is so much reason to love everyone around us.

These days, my focus is to consciously feel joyful, loving, acceptance, blessing, and gratitude, for being allowed to experience this precious gift of life.